In the locker room I stand near a group of girls that are pretty nice and light hearted and funny. There’s one particular pretty girl that’s always smiling and laughing and acting silly, sometimes she has off days where’s she’s upset but don’t we all? Well today in the locker room I looked down at her thighs and saw these very faint cut marks, one wasn’t quite disappearing yet. I just stood there and stared. Its almost like taboo to bring it up, no one ever does. Some people have asked me numerous times what’s wrong with my thighs and I look them straight in the face and switch the subject, as if they never spoke at all. So its not like I could just gasp and hug her and say, “don’t do that! you’re better than that! im so sorry!” because we all know that that doesn’t work and that no one wants to hear that ever. But it just surprises me when I see that people who look absolutely perfectly normal are suffering too.
Voice: Go kill yourself
Voice: Stop eating pig
Voice: Go cut yourself
Voice: Your a piece of shit
Voice: Try fucking harder next time
Voice: Starve yourself fucking ballon
Voice: Go throw up, fucking idiot eating like that
Voice: YOU'RE A PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT! NO ONE LOVES YOU! NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU! YOU ARE A FUCKING LONELY LITTLE WASTE OF SPACE!
Voice: You look so fat today
Voice: They're lying, you actually look ugly
Voice: Stop eating pig
Voice: Go cut yourself
Voice: Your a piece of shit
Voice: Try fucking harder next time
Voice: Starve yourself fucking ballon
Voice: Go throw up, fucking idiot eating like that
Voice: YOU'RE A PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT! NO ONE LOVES YOU! NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU! YOU ARE A FUCKING LONELY LITTLE WASTE OF SPACE!
Voice: You look so fat today
Voice: They're lying, you actually look ugly
All I think about:
If I died today, tomorrow everyone would be “oh so sad”. Next week, they would “still miss her” in two months, they would “think of her sometimes” and in maybe 6 months, they wouldn’t recognize my name without a hint. So if I died today, in maybe 8 moths, everyone I love would be allright. So are 8 months of their sadness worse than these that I’m suffering? Are they worse than the next years that will come?
(Source: loveshinjuku, via razorforasmile)


